Take my heart to the carwash or throw it over a cliff

the heart's nuances & feelings + a conversation between a human and a heart

“Take me to the car wash or throw me over a cliff” my heart said.

“Why?” I answered

“because I rather be squeaky clean than to be left with the residue of the situations I put myself in. It needs water, it needs to be cleansed and I’ll never understand the reason behind tears” my heart said.

“Well let me tell you something you probably won’t want to hear. Your very existence is nuanced. To be a heart is to live through every emotion possible. You can’t pick and choose what to feel. You see your problem is not with being a heart itself but you like to rationalize why you feel what you feel instead of just admitting that whatever comes up is valid and real. Sometimes finding an explanation why just makes matters worse. You say you don’t understand tears but just know that it’s a filtration system that clears the residue that you fear. Just because you cry doesn’t mean you are hurt. Tears don’t always mean sorrow and sometime it’s a combination of emotions that just need a moment to heal so they release through tears. Maybe sometimes you cry because you are free or because you are in awe with life itself. And yes, there will be plenty of time you are experiencing anger, pain, hurt, and doubt. I get it change is something else and when you have to switch up the rhythm of things it can leave you feeling like you’re the only heart out there but you’re not. Tears come unwarranted and during times that don’t make sense. To be a heart is to be connected to all of life. Without you, my experiences wouldn’t count. Having a heart makes me real because if I didn’t have one I would honestly be questioning why I reincarnated here. So next time you try to avoid tears and anything you feel just know that you are a pivotal to the integration of the human in me and spirit”

The heart got quiet. It was left speechless and from there the heart never questioned it’s purpose in the human body ever again.

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the heart’s nuances

I think one of the funniest things is how we’re all heart, and we’re all in when situations benefit us, when they bring us joy, pleasure and even a sense of meaning.

At the first sign of distress guess what we do? We want to get rid of the heart. We set up picket lines and barricades protesting to never put ourselves out there again and to what end? To block potential blessings that want to come in? The heart is a place of both pride and joy that can accumulate experiences both bitter and sweet. Above all else It’s the dwelling place for our spirit and for that reason, it always needs to be reexamined for discernment purposes. We can’t predict how situations turn out or filter out what we experience. Boy that thing will have you in some shit.

The real challenge here is:

1. to not be so soft heartened that you accept anything and fall for everything in the name of “having a good heart” no that’s stupid because pain doesn’t discriminate

2. or to shut it down when everything backfires you go stone cold.

   because you know it’s either one of the two extremes where is the harmony?

I say maybe we can get better at refining our heart and examining how it shows up in every experience and accept it’s nuances. Where could we improve? Where do our strengths lie? What is something that we struggle with?

In examining my own heart, my strength lies in the fact that I put it forward in everything that I do. In what I wear, what I create, what I say both verbal and nonverbal, and how I show up in the world. If it’s not heart centered I don’t want it point blank and I don’t regret that.

I could improve by not being so eager to merge because in merging my heart loses it’s personality a bit. It becomes a puppet in somebody else’s show. I can be loving without coalescing because when the seasons change and the heart must move onto different things, I need my heart to survive. The heart needs to return whence it came.

Where I struggle is with letting go. My senses are amazing. I can conjure up a moment as if it’s happening in real time. That doesn’t leave my heart much room to expand if it’s pondering on the past and sometime my heart thinks it can read minds. Truth is some things aren’t meant for us to know but rest assured Life supports life so I always have the support I need and it is very much happening in the present. You do too.

So I hope you love on your heart today and learn it’s language from the shadows that creep at the back behind your intentions and to the way it just wants to be seen, heard, felt, and loved.

Sending you Big love,

xoxo Tiana

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