free yourself
if you’re reading this right now, hi it’s tiana i’m writing again. i’m currently listening to the sound of the rain (literally) to guide me through this writing. i know what i enjoy, i know what i want to offer to the world but i just don’t know what it’ll look like yet and that’s okay.
Thank you for being here as everything i write is always a yearn for connection.
i hope you enjoy
a new timeline
there have been countless amount of times i’ve locked my personality up inside a box because of it’s complexities.
“who tf am I?”
i couldn’t mentally grasp that i was loud but yet quiet, spiritual and still very human. it was the lack of clarity that two things could exist at the same time. i was in a loophole of shame around my constant transformations and the mutability of my being that was not yet recognized as a gift.
after all i’m earth dominant rigid, fixed, steadfast right? i been fighting change my whole life and still how dare i change. how dare i be many things at once.
the past couple of years unbeknown to the outsider looking in, much of my existence has been centered around trying to show up in the world as one thing. the watered woman, was the name i gave myself when i first started unearthing my truth. even if i wasn’t one hundred percent certain on wtf i was talking about or who i was i just knew i loved communication. i loved speaking, listening and writing. so i made the podcast.
listening to myself on the podcast was the first time i confronted my complex nature.
“how can i show up if i cant stay the damn same?”
“i keep going through transformations, my words can’t be trusted”
“i’m so fraudulent”
that’s pretty much how i felt the entirety of 2021- first half of 2022.
always so confused by these thoughts and feelings of doubt.
my 25th birthday was the year i realized how cut off i had been from my emotions which i’ve learned are the driving force for my passions without the connection to those emotions there was no access to purpose for me.
so i started that journey of learning to regulate my emotions which slowly started to help me accept my complexities as a human being, a spirit, a melanated woman.
that was no easy feat. i struggled but i persevered. just when i thought i was settled into a version of myself that i was comfortable with a week after my 26th birthday i had an emotional break down that took a toll on my mental state.
“NO MORE!! NO MORE!! I can’t keep living like this. something’s gotta give”
after that day a new energy started to form over me. sort of like the sun coming back out again after the rain. i gave my love for writing a chance. summer 2022 i started SEEDS newsletter.
a new version of myself started to take form.
while i will always express my deepest love for the version of myself who is “the watered woman” for the first time in my life, through the shedding of that name, i embraced mutability. it was the newsletter that had given me access to being okay with constantly changing.
it was the act of doing what i love that helped me to start seeing the synergetic flow of things.
now i align with my soul. i listen to the messages of my bodymindspirit to navigate this reality.
i am tianainflow.
and in this timeline. i believe in me too much to shit on myself .
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Below is the link to my last summer newsletter that was the fuel i needed to see myself differently.
may this letter spark the inspiration to unfold, to change, & to take as many approaches to your journey.